Figuring shit out
I figured out why I’m loosing people in my life, I completely push them away, when I want to focus on myself and be happy that’s when people seem to fade away, I seriously don’t know how I’m doing this, I like being alone, but sometimes it’s devastating, I used to be open with everyone, and it felt awesome that I have people genuinely there for me, tell people everything about my life everything going on, good or bad, but now I feel horrible because I can’t do that anymore, maybe with one person but that’s it, it’s a terrible feeling, and it hurts having to have your guard up most of the time, when your not used to doing that, it just adds another worry to my life because it scares the shit outta me that people won’t stay, I hope this goes by fast and I stop second guessing people, because its really fucking up my mind and confusing me
